Of Writers & Prose: When the mind says YES, but the body says NO.

I am the most indecisive person I’ve ever met. My ideas flow like crazy but making them a reality is a whole other story. My on-again-off-again desire to make YouTube videos consumed me for the nearly eight weeks I was off work, until it culminated into a health problem. A minor one, but still it forced me to stand back and take an honest look at what I wanted to do compared with what I could do, and I’m afraid the latter won.

I had a slew of video ideas all planned out. There would be interviews with writer friends on their new books or whatever they wanted to talk about, and I had a series of five minute videos entitled 5 Things Every Writer Should Know, that were quick takes on all sorts of writing related subjects. I did this to keep my mind engaged during lockdown. Last time I did nothing but doomscroll, eat and play video games for six weeds. What I didn’t realize was with the schedule I’d made, I was adding more stress on top of the stress of being in lockdown, and my body (and computer, for that matter) decided I needed a wake call in the form of heart palpitations. My maternal grandfather died of a fatal heart attack at 50, so needless to say I was a bit concerned. I had this years ago when I was drinking a lot of coffee, and they went away when I switched to tea. Quite frankly I feel stupid for it (I know I shouldn’t, but I do), and once I cancelled the interviews everything went back to normal literally overnight. I did toy with the idea of starting them up again, a part of me isn’t willing to risk another round of problems.

Having said that, I still like both of these ideas, but I’m going to make them more me-friendly. The short series I’m going to put up on my blog. I think it’ll be a nice addition to my Writers and Prose posts, and as for the interviews, well, I still want to do that as well and I’m working on making it a reality, just in a different, less stressful way.

Stay tuned . . .

About Darke Conteur
Darke Conteur is a writer at the mercy of her Muse. The author of stories in several genres, she prefers to create within the realms Science Fiction and Dark Fantasy. A pagan at heart, her personal goal it to find her balance within nature; exploring the dark through her stories and the light through her beliefs. When not writing or working with crystals, she enjoys knitting, gardening, cooking and very loud music.

2 Responses to Of Writers & Prose: When the mind says YES, but the body says NO.

  1. G.K. Ray says:

    This one in particular feels deeply personal to me. Social distancing and isolation has put a strain on my mental health. Too much time alone to think and ponder. And due to the Cerebral Palsy, I often get stiff joints and muscle tension. Cramps and spasms in my legs are a frequent occurrence. I try to stretch, take breaks, and hydrate. But it can still be a problem when I’m going strong in the middle of a chapter or a scene and my body stops. My brain often floods with story and character conversations, but my body isn’t always up to the task. I don’t talk about it maybe as much as I should. But I sometimes think a way to transpose what is in my head directly onto the page without hours of sitting down and writing would be so helpful. Still, we must write and create and do what we can. Pace yourself, my friend. Get done what you can. The rest will sort itself.

    • We can’t let our writing get in the way of our health. Now that I’m back to work, my mind is engaged again and I’m busier, but still, I keep wanting to do all these things. It’s like a hang-over or residue leftover from the shutdown. Stay safe.

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